the adrenaline rush

it's been raining hard today. scratch that, it just stopped.

anyway, today is the 18th birthday of one of my very very very best friends, PAMELA CAMILLE AVECILLA BARREDO. she's celebrating her day sans the gown, the flowers and the celebration Instead, with friends who gave her a suprise party, and with friends who wish they were there, but are just a phone call away, nonetheless.

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a few days from now and all hell will break loose as i will start to cram for my midterm exams. yes, johnny, cram. well, i could easily study right now, but where's the fun in that? um, i should stop doing that. i'm beginning to scare myself. haha

but the exam fever in the college is, probably better than what i've experienced in high school. i remember a time where i had to make sq3r's, summary sheets and answer crap that doubles as a long exam. i would probably have those again i hope not...in due time, but the "extra" work load is much much lighter.

wait, it's a sunday today. i always have the gusto to update during sundays. i really have no idea why, but, as what i've said before, it's a dangerous habit. picture this: it's around 8:30 pm, and you have a 7:30 class the next day, and you haven't studied for a long exam and answered your homework due tomorrow...and what do you do? write about it. i liiiiivvvvvvvvveeeeeeeee for the adrenaline rush. it's unhealthy, i'll give you that, but there's something about living on the edge that is simply...intoxicating.

it's simply about going against what I stand for and what I should live up to. there is seriously something profound about having this slip from my usual routine. well, this isn't me, i'll admit. but whoever this person is, he should seriously stick around.


lol. i should really get a life.

the big 8...among other things.

there's something with the '8' in 2008 that makes me feel weird, and inspired.


probably a new beginning. a new outlook. new clothes. new look. new everything! i wish...

off the topic...

abs-cbn's promo vid for their new shows disappointed me. there's something in the animation that tells me most of the prgrams are gonna suck. i can't blame the whole philippine television scheme. airing shows on a daily basis with so many twists and turns that it could probably circumnavigate the world..a few times over...will tell you that complex storylines are the trend. sigh. why can't they simplify things and build on that storyline...like Grey's Anatomy? the last part of the vid sounded nice though...the piano-ed jingle. classy minimalist presentations are in na pala (hmm..parang dati pa man.)




and i'm still under the defeatist blanket. crrryyyyiiinnggg my eyes out


by the way, i need a new layout. any suggestions? :). PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

the defeated chronicles, pt. 2

i'm writing these words all defeated, knowing that i fooled myself in thinking i could be a god. damn you, lab report, damn you!!!!


why can't i fucking get this? this is solubility at it's worst. fuck. im wanna crryyyy...


bad mouth. bad mouth. maybe i should pray more...

what ever happened to enlightenment?

OK. I'M NOT A GOD. not today that is.
the path to transcendance will have to wait another day. curse you, lab report, curse you.


-refer to the post down there


in other news...

twisturbia launches a new face...



click it. NOW!!!!!!

a godly attempt

i've managed to put the planner that camille gave me to good use by outlining what i'm supposed to do today to prepare myself for hell next week. that includes setting a specific time frame to do this and that...and that basically covers the whole day.



lol. so much for that idea!

if i manage to squeeze in a day's worth of school work tonight, then, CONSIDER ME A GOD.



if that plan fails, then, there's always tomorrow.

and the quest for immortality starts in...5..4..3...3 and a half...3.003....