Saturday, July 12, 2008

a tirade!

the past two weeks haven't been friendly, to put it lightly. i'm always tired, i feel like dozing off at the wrong time, all the time, and everything seems to fall apart. sure, everybody has those days (and weeks), but what makes it all the more difficult to digest are the instances when i could just say it flat out, "stop". perish the thought of shifting! but things in school haven't been encouraging lately...

and like you, i'm tired of hearing the same thing over and over again.

i'm writing right now because it want to make mountains out of molehills, and invoke the petty tirades i have with myself. i complain about waking up at 5:30 three days a week just so i wouldn't miss the bus for our duty. i complain about how my teachers manifest their hatred towards me(see? shallow!) by giving exams every day.

but it's disgusting to complain about the same thing day in and day out. it's immature to rant about something like your duty or exams, when thousands of people went through the same ordeal and survived with a few scratches and bruises here and there. but who is to say everything needs to be ABCD easy? i'm slowly getting a glimpse of the real world through the eyes of a naive child with no preconceived notion of how cruel the world can be. and i'm slowly realizing how naive i am, to bitch about things i could easily conquer if i just focus.

"ang hirap ng college!" is so high school.

move along dammit.

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