my angry tooth!

i should probably explain why there was a perpetual bleep on the blog radar that lasted around a week, as far as i'm concerned. well, i going to eat my words right now - the computer wasn't running properly. wasn't. which means during that time when my ass didn't show, we sent it to the pc hospital to have it all fixed. this morning, it came back. so i assumed that from now on, everythin'l be peachy.


after n years, i finally went to my dentist to have something done. apparently, my lower left third molar was impacted (meaning it didn't "explode" ), and the surrounding gum area has been a petri dish for bacteria. so like i said, it was the first time i had something done, and the fact that it was unpleasant really didn't make the "first time" dampened every sentimental cell in my body.

the tug of war between my tooth and her as well as the the pseudo army barrage of drills, pliers and anesthesia lasted for about an hour-ish. so the first 30 minutes after the surgery (yeahhh, it wasn't just an extraction), i was still perky enough to watch my regular youtube soap, but soon after, i was ready to look for a fight and eff-curse the family --- even the baby!

my uncle didn't help either, since it took him 30 minutes after i handed him the money for my meds to bring his sorry self to the pharmacy...and he short-changed me!

I already drooled blood on my pillow, and what's holding me together is the Flanax which is my new mani. I hurts so much i wanted to destroy the pain scale. As least now, i don't cry, i just get really angry that at any moment, i could get scissors and slice kittens in half.

Well, I survived circumcision, how on earth could this be any worse? *sob*

the bucket list so far

the first sem of kalokohan has finally let out its last whiff of flatulence!


My PC fiiiinnnnaalllyyyy got the long overdue overhaul. though the RAM remains untouched, decluttering the unimportant files (thanks to my in-law/technician kuya) finally did a world of good.


I bought "love in time of cholera" yesterday. it draws you in as far as the storyline goes. i want to finish it by the end of the week of i could move one to "100 years".

30 minutes before Monday! i just had the nerve to post something useless right about now. well, at least i'm alive.


Sanity and substantiation will have to take a backseat for now.

the boredom bucket list

i've been making and breaking to-do lists since i learned how to spell my name. blame it on a sedentary spot in my brain which inhibits everything productive. and it's also the spot that tells me to blog at the worst time (LIKE TONIGHT FOR EXAMPLE). but enough about that. i've made a resolve to try (and i use this word veeerrryyyy loosely), to accomplish at least 70% of what's on my new list.

my list is set for the sembreak. though marko tells me we wont have a sembreak, let's just say i'm in the mood to screw the system and push through with my shallow plans. so here goes:


1. give my desktop an overhaul. my RAM speed is killing me. i have to restart it at least once a day if i plan to use it properly, and decently opening limewire and playing songs have been a bitch these days.

2. download movies and TV series. i miss my old peoples (Meredith and Greg House). and there's no better time to channel my pseudo-movie critic into something "productive".

3. process my papers. if i do want to ride an elephant (or at least go to hong kong disneyland) pretty soon...i better to it asap.

4. read up. i'm over (so i say...haha) the pop culture bookshelf phenomenon.. i intend to read an overlooked yet extremely good piece of fiction over the course of two weeks.

5. de-clutter my working space. hurricane Svetlana has overstayed her welcome.

6. walk. according to my Nutrition handout (which i'm supposed to be studying), people have a predisposed "weight for height" and no matter how hard you try, starving yourself to reach your "ideal weight" (which is another misleading term), is hard since the body eventually "resets" itself by pigging out to go back to "normal". old school exercise is still the way to go.

7. make a "Vision Board". taking a page out of the Secret and listening to Oprah out of boredom, does wonders after all. (maybe i'll expound next time)

- until then. i hope i my sembreak starts early (for me that is). but before actually relishing freedom, the kalokohan must ensue.

bruised and bad

Friday

my nerves and I crashed into each other like two deers caught in the headlights. who could blame us? I always had this bi-polar attitude with public displays, be it debates, and in this case (and also the most recent), JUDO. gaahhhh. what i mean by being bi-polar is that i flinch at the thought of being in front of people, but i revel in the adrenaline rush that goes with it.

So i woke up with a pounding heart last Friday. it was the dayof our intra class competition, and those who managed to beat people to the pulp the best were chosen to beat even more people to the pulp this Sunday (tomorrow). So naturally, the nerves started to kick in, and in true form, i felt nauseous until my match was called. i was under the -73kg division (which put me in the same category as marko. bah!). but i didn't get to fight him. fortunately, i was pitted against a "varsity" (quote unquote since he kinda affiliates himself with the judo club, but he still takes classes with us lulits) member who left bruises on my chin. what fun. (note the slightest hint of sarcasm). but the match was such a bittersweet high notwithstanding...well, except for the bruises, which are very very very distracting..."wearing your scars proud" makes me sound like a warfreak hell-bent on picking fights with gangstas.

We're rooting for the warfreaks tomorrow. Sir Judo told us to "pray that your class will land a spot in the top 3..or else feel the wrath of the varsity, who will slice, chop, puree, and grind you to shreds you'll wish you had 3 years of nonstop return demos! bwahahaha" -- well, he didn't say this per se...i just felt like exaggerating.

So this is me signing off. i'm sleepy and i told myself i would get some sleep six hours ago. tsk.