Sunday, January 14, 2007

the rampaging cyclone

a turbulent cyclone of thoughts and random, nonsensical thoughts drown the focus that i should have regained after the two week hiatus from school. the storm keepes getting wilder and wilder. to break it down into these chunks of thought would take me hours to write.
the storm that should have been calmed has reached it's full momentum. I don't know what'll happen next. I can't think straight. i used to be good at organizing my thoughts and planning my day into these pockets of time where i do things a normal person would do. i want to scream all my troubles and problems away...
but i can't. i can't because i don't know why. i'm not making sense. i'm shallow, i'm problematic, i'm pessimistic, i'm evil, i'm not myself lately.
AdZU, check. AdMU, check. UP and UST..um..whatever. I'm gonna be affiliated with the BSN's of AdZU anyway...
I need something to relieve me of stress and anxiety soon. if i'll keep it locked up inside, i might implode.
the cyclone spins..and spins..and spins...and spins....

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whatever happened to the me i knew myself to be? :(

12 comments:

utakGAGO said...

oh, you happened to be a Senior like me.

uhh, so you passed ADMU? what do you mean by those checks?

kisha said...

awwww.. it'll be over soon, love.. a little more patience..

twistedigest said...

utakgago>>> checks -- i passed. :). yeah, senior ako. :)

twistedigest said...

kisha>>> i know...but i'm not sure if i'm looking forward to it, dear. huhu...mag-adzu ka ba this coming school year? update me as soon as you can!!!!!

tara said...

yeah itll be over soon .. why be sad? u've got almosteverything ull ever want

twistedigest said...

tara>>> why be sad? u've got almosteverything ull ever want
----- that statement hit me. hehe...am i being too self-centered / selfish? pero, these problems i have aren't really materially connected. nevertheless, i'm vain..haha

stuck and feeling rotten said...

huhuhu.. sadly, i believe that i'll be stuck here for the rest of my freakin life! things always get in the way like my brothers accident caused only glimmer of hope to be taken away.. dapat kc sabay kami balik manila..

T_T

you and me both said...

that's so sad kish...maybe the powers that be are trying to say something. lol. anyway, if ever na i'll get stuck here rin..we'll be miserable together! haha

Tara said...

if you ask me honestly.. id say yes..

twistedigest said...

ok..:) thanks for the honesty!!!!

Anonymous said...

gio/kish, la lang... i'm trying to postpone studying trig. you guys are brilliant, brilliant people. move whatever mountains you can to get out of ADZU. but IF you absolutely CAN'T, you're still brilliant, brilliant people (who look and dress better than 90% of the people there. dba that's what we always comfort ourselves with?) don't let the fact that IT'S adzu keep you guys from going after whatever it is that you want to chase. shivna.

twistedigest said...

thanks shivs...that helped. thanks for dropping by!!!!!!!!