"this has been a long long day"
you would have expected me to write about something happy or euphoric about my day, seeing as this is my third post, but no.
this day has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride.
why you ask?
let me take you to the beginning.
I woke up, early as usual. Yes, my mom will be going to manila and my dad will drop her off at the airport and after that, he'll drop me off at school. Yes, I woke up quite normal. But I just remembered, today's CHORAL day. A rush of excitement filled me as soon as I realized it. I said to myself, "kaya namin 'to, last year nga". You see, as an honors class, it is expected that you win, and my class (Berchmans), has never broken it's legacy of being first place ever since this section was conceived twelve years ago. Twelve long years. Well, our choral right now will be lucky thirteen, the hell.
This year was different because, as of this morning, the feeling of overwhelming uncertainty filled our heads. Yes, we practiced, but our practices were never perfect. Then, performance time. There goes Jasper, giving a "moving" speech about giving it our all, yes, so moving. Sinabi ko na bigay todo na talaga kami sa performance, and we did. And we felt quite happy about it. After the rest of the third years had performed, dan-dan-daran- the results were announced. We were the first to perform, and although some of my classmates said that the first perfomance almost never wins first...I didn't mind it. Then, the head judge went onstage and announced the results. Then, before she announced it, I glanced at one of the emcees, and when he looked at the paper, he had a scandalous expression on his face, again, I did not mind it. She announced the third place, then the second place, "Second place goes to contestant number one", she said...."one, isn't that our number?!"....the whole class went silent...some were clapping...some had looks on their faces as if they wanted to cry....I could not blame them....Yet I held back my tears......our class....broke the legacy....ouch.....
On the lighter side....none of us....okay most of us....felt....what's the word?...contented....yah....contented......(for full details on why we felt contented....ask me personally)....well....tapos na.....second kami....HINDI "Second lang kami"...but...second kami....yes....it's hard to accept...pero...sinasabi ko nalang sa sarili ko....eh...kung namatayan ka....would you play God and bring that person to life?.....ok na 'to...hindi...masakit pa rin.....wag ka ba ganyan.....bakit man?...binigay mo and todo mo pero hindi pa rin sapat......what do the judges want anyway?......sige...'till next year, WE SHOULD WIN...keber ka...last year na namin and magpatalo kami?....pero kahit na...ay basta! What's done is done....never cry over spilled milk....pwede ka mag shed a tear....basta wag kang umiyak.....eh paano ka pag binigay mo ang best mo and hindi ka pa rin nagwagi?....basta binigay mo ang best mo...kahit hindi man first place....and kung alam mo...na binigay mo and lahat mo...contento ka na....masaya ka na....
pero ang tanong....masaya ba ako?
twisted right?
No comments:
Post a Comment