2008 yo!

what a year...what a year..what a year...



2007 has got to be the most turbulent roller coaster ride ever!



i...



graduated from high school. met a family i never knew i had. called myself a college freshman. experienced the taste of defeat. lived a month of regret and angst (emo daw ako that time). succeeded in proving myself wrong. met new friends. lost some old ones. rediscovered the ones i thought i left behind. felt the pang of self-pity loads of times. extracted fish juice. lived a constant tug of war between passing and failing. puked on a bus from Cagayan. screamed at the top of my lungs. brushed shoulders with some people i never should have met....



experienced self-inadequacy.

found myself.

and lost myself again.




and made a cheesecake a few minutes ago.









i'm thankful that i've managed to come out alive. scarred and scared. but i survived. with the passing of another year, it probably took a lot of me with it. and that's not just fluff. like i said, it has been a constant tug of war between passing and failing, but as i end the year with mixed emotions, i've come to realize it's more of an internal struggle between remembering, and forgetting who i am. my situation right now could probably generate a novel's worth of drama, but let's leave it at that. but this isn't something cataclysmic. maybe i'm just too anxious to be somebody, and do the things i want to do...and the end result is what i see in the mirror. (this is essentially another story to tell, so let's leve it at that nalang.)









anyway...



i know 2008 holds many possibilities for me. be it a struggle or an opportunity, let's just say i should seriously grab the bull by the horns. it feels weird to be in a situation where you're going further along, and moving onwards to greater things...and getting older and with it, shouldering more and more responsibilities. but i hope that even if it's still a blur for me right now, a clear path would someday show itself.







but in the meantime...



to the people i've always had, and to the ones i've met along the way...



thanks for a great year!





something to ponder on (audrey sent this to me a while ago...)

We will open the book. It's pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called OPPORTUNITY, and it's first chapter is NEW YEAR'S DAY.